“Absence Makes The Heart Grow Fonder”

That’s the quote I found in my fortune cookie today. That’s the same quote I told my friend, when I was venting to her about you. That’s the same quote I thought of, when I realized that the amount of time I’ve spent away from you has made me fall harder. See I thought I’d be over it; that I’d stop seeing the potential of “us” in my dreams within a couple weeks. I thought seeing other people would make me forget but it just made me realize that they aren’t you. 

“I’ll change if you promise to stay”

When I love someone, it’s hard for me to show them I care, and when I care a lot about a person, I push them away to the point where they do end up leaving. If a person I have feelings for hurts me emotionally, I try my best to make them feel the same way I felt whether it’s jealousy or cheating. I’m a flirt and it always causes problems too, because I don’t realize what I’m doing until someone points it out. But if someone finds me worth it; to go through all these flaws and trouble, I’ll change. I just need someone to stay.  

I’m sorry.

I’m sorry if I act distant from now on. For the times when you feel that I’m beside you but not really there. For all the times you remember the lovely things I said to you, and I’ll tell you I forget. But I do remember. Every single one of them and that’s the saddest part about it all.

I’m not going to be the one to hold your hand and tell you everythings going to be alright when you’re depressed. I’m not going to focus solely on you anymore. You’re not going to be a priority. Those late night talks where we confess everything; which made my love for you so real, will be reduced to one worded answers like “K” or “cool”.

 Whenever you kiss or touch me, I’ll pull back. And when you’re bored or lonely; when he’s not there, I won’t be the one trying my ass off to make you smile.  Whenever you need someone to vent to about your boyfriend, I’ll be gone. I’m apologizing because I have to be selfish just this once, or it’ll hurt so bad in the end.

“I Can’t Picture Life Without You”

You ever have that one person who’s stuck by you, through your entire life? You were once total strangers but then with time, their presence became a daily routine. And if they weren’t there in person, you’d constantly text them. You updated them whenever something life changing happened to vent out your feelings or whenever something insignificant occurred just because they know how to deal with you and legitimately care. Whenever you pictured getting married or having kids, you imagined that they would be in that crowd of people giving you your blessings, or baby sitting your children. You can’t picture life without that person. This person is your best friend. Possibly your soul mate. Or someone that you use to know.